Syncronicity, bane of my fame?

I have adopted a strategy of looking back on my experience, finding a trend or pattern, and describing that as a strategy. As though the pattern were something which could have been planned or designed.

One trend i have noticed leads me to postulate that I, personally, am unable to think of, or at least describe, anything which has not been thought before. It goes something like this:

I think something. Make a connection between concepts which were previously unconnected. And think nothing of it. Gradually i begin to realize that i have this connection, and that those in my surroundings seem not to. I attempt to share this but do not have the necessary terms to articulate it. So i search for useful terms. In the search i find many fascinating things around the connection i made, and forget the significance of the connection itself. At some point later i come to realize again, that i have a connection and those in my surrounding seem not to. Because of my searching, my surroundings now include people on either side of the connection, so it becomes even more valuable for me to share it. And i have learned from those people the terms necessary to articulate it. I begin to articulate it, and find that it just became public knowledge. Somebody else has just proved it scientifically, or divined it astrally, or composed it musically, or what have you.

Being human, i have feelings about this:

I feel relieved that i am not the only person who has this connection. The burden of articulation no longer rests on my shoulders alone. I feel frustrated that the work did i put into the articulation no longer seems necessary. My attempts appear to be retroactively nullified.

Then i feel curious to discover if that person who just presented new proof began research at the same instant i "initially" thought of it. If so, is there a way to show whether one party or another had the idea "first"? Or more importantly, could they have thought of it if i had not? If not, how many people does it actually take to think something? Is there a new connection here?

...i expect someone to post the new conclusive evidence announced last tuesday that researchers in 4 different labs around the globe simultaneously discovered. Or that it was in the special features of What the Bleep do We Know and i missed it...

I watch other people getting their degrees, and research grants, and prizes, and patents, and TV shows, for stuff i came up with when i was a little kid. And i love them, for sharing in the work that i found interesting. I feel pangs, and wonder if i should do something different in the future to "get credit" for the stuff i came up with last year. I consign myself to never getting fame for changing the world, but getting the privilege to be an ordinary citizen in a world which seems to shift itself to fit my fondest dreams. I decide to look at it, for a time, as though my goals and projects become reality without me having to bankroll them, or do the legwork.

But then again, i am publicizing this.

~rry